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On my 23rd Birthday, we remember.


This is a message of thanks!

My 2023 is filled of journey and experiences that put me into thousands of emotions and inexpressible feeling. With multiple times of winning moments, and feeling of losing my life at the same time, you were all with me the whole time.

This 23rd Birthday celebration is something I dedicate to my young self and those people who stayed with him. You made things convenient and easy with all those personal struggles I had to deal with years back. Joshua wouldn't be this brave without you.

This is a personal closure to Joshua who stuck in dreaming and thinking about too many things and people around him. We're too different that it makes me feel suffocated most of the time. 

To Combi that joined me in reminiscing the time we were still figuring things out. To my college friends Cioden, and former classmates such Yce, Kyla, Emman, Aaron, and Arvy who made me feel seen, belong, and visible when I try do things right. To Boombooms and BiBos who accepted me first as Seventh. To Worldwide, my unexpected friendship, that joined me on my happiest, loneliest, and most emotional moments of my life.

To Mariel who always stay by my side.

To universe, that weirdly accepted my biggest wish from April 4, 2023. To let me have one last moment with someone that made me what I am today. Surprisingly, you made that person be beside me and join me enjoy a drink from the same place where I bursted out. That's all I ever need before I can say that I am finally okay. That one moment alone is the most enchanting feeling I've ever felt in my whole life of wondering what does it feel like.

To myself, that made all these things possible at age of 23. I love you.

To my family, especially my Dad, and Mom in heaven, who are so supportive of my dreams and understanding of my emotions. Thank you for being with me and being proud of me when I can't.

23 is yet the start of another phase of questioning my path, my identity, my plans, and so. 

Universe, just keep the things that save me and I'll continue pursuing things no matter how hard they can be.
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