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How June consumed me.

Grabe 'tong June, parang 365 Days na pinagkasya sa 30 days. 

28x ko na ata nasabi na April & May were so harsh and challenging. Pero ngayong June, naks, buhay pa naman ako.

Finally. Yung mga inis ko sa actions ng mga tao, iniiwan ko nalang sa specific events na 'yon. Hindi ko na binibigyan ng space ang sarili ko to hate people. Just actions, and then move on. Mas matapang na rin naman ako ngayon harapin ang mga fcking heavy responsibilities. Medyo gumaan na rin dahil may nakaka-usap naman na akong college friends na it took me 3 years to build up, pero hindi ko pa rin talaga sila matimpla. Haha XD 


Pero ang umubos talaga ng hininga ko ay ang Mr. & Ms. LPU Manila na prinessure ako sa deadlines at responsibilities as Photo and Videographer. At na-realize ko lang bigla, hindi kami nabibigyan ng proper appreciation. Naaawa ako sa mga members ko tuwing after events tapos may sisigaw na "It's a wrap! Guys, picture!" Syempre, ang mga bata ko, tatakbo doon. 

Pero hindi pala sila kasali. 

Hindi ko naman niyayabang 'yung ambag ng org ko, pero kulang sila ng inclusivity sa mga tauhan naming tina-trabaho ang promotions ng mga events ng LPU offline and online. With this realization, I've decided to not renew my position sa LMAS next sem.

Next sem, OJT season, Thesis season pa. May special term pa ko. Jusko, bayarin! Medyo inis dahil rejected ang thesis namin as Capstone, edi uulit na naman kami?! Pota. Naiinis rin ako sa prof ko ngayon sa Math, hindi pumapasok pero nagpapa-exam? Shabu lang.

Anyways, akala ko hindi ko na kayo make-kwentuhan ng buhay ko. Kasi napagod ako eh wahaha. To sum it up, nawala ako sa sarili ko. But now, I think I'm seeing the right ways na naman. Sana kayo rin, sana maging okay rin kayo. Sorry if minsan hindi ko kayo nakaka-musta, hindi ko rin kasi makumusta sarili ko hehe.

Buti ngayon, okay na muna. The past weeks and months made me decide to build a stronger relationship with myself. Sobrang worth it mahalin at i-value ng sarili, hays. It's better than jowa. It's better than waiting for crush na i-like ang story ko at ma-validate na cute ako hahaha ayan ang shabu! 

Seventh 4 months ago is DEAD. Hala?! HAHA BURAT

Ayon lang. See u next time!
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