During the peak of pandemic, I started to value my time, my worth, and the people around me. I thought of some people as friends for good, but the reality is, I was just part of their lives. I'm no longer a friend on the current chapters of their stories. That's why I started to choose my people, too.
GOOD OLD TIMES, that's how we call it. We don't need to go back, but we can always look back. We were happy back then, but those times won't stay forever.
I decided to cut-off some people because I feel like we're different now, maybe in beliefs, on how we see things— or it's just I don't see myself seeing them anymore. And that doesn't mean they were bad to me.
We outgrow people.
It's just how we declutter things mentally.
Decluttering is hard, but it's way easier to handle than when it's you being decluttered and removed on their lives.
I have this not-so-close classmate in Senior High, and as far as I know, we were good. We exchange random chikkas. I always look forward on her career, actually. I wanted to be friends with her.
Earlier this year I found out she unfollowed me on Instagram, she even removed me as her follower. She also unfriended me on Facebook weeks after. She's still friends with our classmates, though.
I don't have any idea why. I was good to her. We never had an argument, and I no longer post something critical on social media these days.
I kept thinking why?
Suddenly I just remember how I removed some people in my life. Though, I still cheer for them from afar, but just like what I said, I choose my people now. It's like a baggage that went 47KG from 100KG.
The main reason why is that I only want to have few people in my life as I get older. People who are real and can understand me. Who I can be comfortable with. But of course, we need to meet new people too.
Maybe that's what she did. Maybe she's not seeing me to be around her in the near future, even though I do. Maybe she needed to declutter just to have more space in her mind and in her heart— and that doesn't mean I was bad.
That doesn't mean we were bad.
If you experienced the same things, to declutter and to be decluttered, always remember that it should never affect you and your existence. I know it's like a relationship that has come to an end, but remember, not all characters in a book actually make it to the ending.
Validate your emotions, but we have to move on.
Let's celebrate how we became part of someone's life. And if ever we had to say goodbye to the role that we played, let's just accept it.
We have our own lives that must go on. With new or the same people we chose to be around us. Our reasons why we decided to remove some characters in our stories are valid. Always valid.
In the end, it's your life that should matter. Let's continue our journey.
If there's someone who is going to remove me on their life as well, if it will help them grow and achieve a more peaceful life— then it's okay to me.
To that Senior High classmate, thank you for helping me reviewing on our exams. I hope you enjoyed my drawing book gift on your birthday wayback in 2019. I enjoyed some school days we eat lunch together with our group of friends, and my crush, or when we eat and play inside our common friend's house. And I'm sorry if I was toxic or if there were times I offended you.
SHS was a gift of so much experience with different people. Goodluck on your journey.
Cheers from Seventh.
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