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What Does It Feel To Share The Same Photos

 

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Today is May 14th of 2023, everyone is celebrating a happy mother's day. For the past year, I've seen a lot of babies, new moms and dads. I've witnessed how happy they were. These parents obviously saw a new meaning of life. For more than a decade, actually 13 years, I never experienced celebrating mother's day with my own mom. I don't know what it feels like. 


I'm seeing dozens of social media posts dedicated to moms. Some are celebrating out of town, in a mall, or just a simple dinner at home. And here I am, and my siblings... we share the same photos of our mother for 13 years since she passed away. 


One of the main reasons why I want to keep photography alive in my life is because it serves big purpose: to preserve memories. My poor family wasn't able to save our printed photos wayback in 2000s when our province was hit by typhoons. My nanay only have around 3 or 5 photos in our own collection. Another sad thing, I don't have any baby photos to look back. I've never seen my baby self. 


That's why it has become a personal promise, a mission, and a passion. To take photos for me and for other people, to 'preserve' them so their future self and families may see. I don't want other people to feel what I feel every time I share the same photos, when in fact I am a photographer who takes thousand of photos in a month.


But there's nothing more majestic than the pictures I have from my memory. I still can remember the simple days I had with my mother. She's kind, sweet, and my comfort. I used to hug her every morning. She used to cry with me whenever she feels bad and tired. At my young age, I had no idea what she's going through, but I know she was sad, she was in pain... and me being beside her could be a relief.


We may be sharing and looking at the same photos, but it's better than literal nothing. That's why I invite you all to capture your memories, even the simple days, so you can always look back and remember. 


To my nanay in heaven, I always miss you. I love you more than any word that can describe it. I think of you everyday, and I still wish that you were here. Your words towards me always remind me to think better, and it helped me growing up. I know you're happy for me! 

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