From Seventh

Lately naisip ko bigla how things change so fast, and I realized that I can't feel the essense of Christmas anymore. Parang hindi na ito para sa akin? Hindi na ako excited. Parang iniisip ko nalang lahat ng gastos, ang mga araw na hindi ako makaka-raket. It's another time to worry about the upcoming new year. Ano na naman kayang mangyayari sa akin?  Parang ang pasko ay para nalang sa bata.  Pero naisip ko, ito rin ang time para maging marahan sa sarili natin, at magpasalamat dahil despite many mistakes, many downfalls and all, nakarating tayo sa puntong ito.  Ito ang panahon para maalala na kahit gaano man katindi ang mundo, (cringe ito pero totoo ha hehe), pagmamahal pa rin talaga ang nagpapagaan ng lahat 'no? Pagpapahalaga mo sa sarili mo, 'pag look back sa lahat ng mga bagay na kinaya mo kahit akala mo hindi, sa mga taong dumating sa buhay mo, sa mga natutuhan mo. Pasasalamat dahil may kasama ka, o naging kasama ka ng kung sinoman ang nangailangan.  Hi...

I will always be fascinated of how I fell in love so deeply with the same guy after 7 years. And just in case you're wondering, I waited for 7 years to have a picture with him 7 months after I manifested for it this year (2023, as of this writing). And guess what? That's a total of 7 pictures being beside each other all happened in a Sunday. And there let me say it, I'm the lucky one when that day alone felt mine. Prologue  End of the dry season of 2016 when I got chickenpox and I wasn't able to attend the first week of my Grade 9 because of it. And I enjoyed that excuse because I always hated attending school, besides I'm not classmates with my first guy crush in high school— Gerald. After a week I was surprised with new people in a classroom composed of more or less than 40 people. I knew some, but we were not that close. The solid friendship I only experienced was during my freshman year (even though I barely speak, at least I felt belong). Back then,...